MY MIND WAS TOO ACTIVE

I had difficulty sleeping last night. I was reorganising my data folder which I collected from all over the place when I lost my original data from my external hard drive. I mean it was not difficult or stressful yet I was unable to sleep. I decided to go surfing on my computer. Maybe I should be praying instead. 

Actually I have been troubled internally - like my “stomach” don’t agree! I was struggling with some of the discussions, debates, and articles flying around. It is not the articles or discussions per se that I am troubled BUT the stark reality of the unsurmountable task of trying to reasonably and plausibly able to explain the existence of God, the problem of evil, meaning of life, and morality from a Christian worldview without being too emotional, too defensive and too weak in the argument.

I am confronted with the fact that I am still very poorly equipped to handle such loaded questions of my faith, my beliefs and worldview. I felt so inadequate to handle the philosophical brickbats from people who are not only knowledgeable but armed to the teeth with text-book answers and questions to counteract Religion in general and Christianity in particular. I think I need to take serious courses on Philosophy 101, Critical Thinking, and Apologetics 101. There may not be many vocal people who boldly speak aloud for the world to hear their questions, their doubts, and their struggles BUT there are certainly many young people out there who are quietly asking the same questions over and over again. Some may search and seek for answers from the Internet, books, and what not. There’s always the possibility of seeking the wrong place and ended up with a skewed worldview OR in the right place and discover the beauty of truth.

The thing that I drag the most has been the tough enquiries by these skeptics about the Bible, Genesis account, and the existence of God. They have all the right questions to corner us with our backs against the wall. I am not saying that they are vicious, evil or conniving BUT that they are always so prepared compared to the Christians. I know we do have the answer but we have to study hard to show ourselves approved unto God and to be able to give an answer of the hope that is found in Christ.

I am encouraging myself to search the Scriptures, research other literatures, and listen carefully to what the people out there is saying, is questioning and challenging our Christian faith. We must be prepared. We are living in a fast changing culture - a global culture that is connected through the Internet and Media. We cannot assume that people are ignorant and naive anymore. The wast world out there wants answers - it better be convincing. If we say we have the Truth - Jesus the Ultimate Truth - then we better be prepared to help them understand by rationally engaging them and presenting the One True God and Saviour Jesus Christ.